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When in Doubt, Go Away

I am ready to run away again.

I realized I am not ready to start my career yet. I got my degree and now it feels like everyone is expecting me to do something with it and, for some reason, I don’t even know if I like any of the things I could do with my degree.

I was never really passionate about anything. Not like other people are. You know, when you have something you love doing so much you could do it forever? I have hobbies. I do something and I am ecstatic about it for a while and then I find something else to be ecstatic about. And when I feel like I might need to do one thing forever I just get depressed. How weird is that?

Maybe I just haven’t found something that I really loved? Maybe it’s like with the love of your life- you can have million crushes, but you would only marry the real deal, only certain person can be the Mr Perfect.

So now that I can’t figure out the next step I am going to travel, apparently.

Basically, what happened was that a bit over a week ago I found out about this cheap travel agency, googled some stuff about it and decided to pay them a visit just to see what they are all about and what kind of trips do they offer. And now two days ago I have payed deposit to go visit Thailand and Australia for a month.

I couldn’t be more excited! I never thought I would be actually able to do something like this, but it’s happening. I am planning on volunteering with animals and learning how to dive and probably skydive as well, and it can’t come soon enough! I am a bit worried about visas, because I never had to apply for one before, but I’m sure I can handle it. I handled moving to another country, so I am hoping I can handle a trip on my own as well.

But I can’t help but feeling that I am just running again and searching for something. I don’t even know what that something is, but it’s out there and I know I don’t have it yet.

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6 thoughts on “When in Doubt, Go Away

  1. I can relate to what you’re feeling. I don’t feel like I’ve found my “life passion” or whatever that everyone else seems to have found. I hope you find yourself on your travels, and you find whatever you are looking for. Best wishes!

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  2. Visas are so frustrating! But hey, you will figure it out.
    I’m in the process of going to England(from Canada) to get my Master’s degree- above all for Theatre, which isn’t the most affluent industry to partake in. But I always try to remind myself that it is about the journey, not the destination.
    I know it’s really easy to SAY that.
    Well if that doesn’t work, try the serenity prayer.
    Or meditating.
    Hahaha I know, I’m also a big ball of nerves(10 days away), but not really knowing is a bit exciting, isn’t it?

    Thanks for sharing 🙂

    Ty

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    1. I was actually considering going from England to do Masters in Canada. But as I am not hundred percent sure about what I want to do and if I even wanna do Masters, that will have to wait haha But I wish you all the best, I’m sure it will be amazing experience, and studying Theatre related degrees is so much fun! So good luck and thanks for kind words! 🙂

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